dear husband, please stop tracking my online deliveries!!

Jul 23

Jul 23 dear husband, please stop tracking my online deliveries!!

Dear husband,

I hear your slick comments every time we get a package delivered. I mean, are you really mad that this is the 5th package delivered today, or because it has my name on it instead of yours??

I’m sorry, that was a little petty.

So do I have a shopping problem? Possibly. However (comma), COVID! I just don’t feel comfortable shopping in person yet. And honestly, most of our household items can be shipped directly to our door within the same or next-day!

Yall, my husband is so sick of me and this problem! And after reviewing my bank statements from March until now, I see that I have to be stopped. I have a hallway full of packages that I haven’t even opened yet. And it’s like Christmas every time the bell rings. I order so much that I’ve actually lost track over what I bought and when it’s coming.

But he’s right… I don’t need half of these things in my cart right now. And these are already financially hard times for everyone, so I don’t need to get further into debt buying stuff I don’t need. The truth is that my anxiety had run rampant with the uncertainty of what life looks like right now, and I struggled to find healthy ways to cope. So DIY projects and clothing hauls became my thing. And while it’s great in moderation, I need to do a better job at checking in with myself and assessing my mental space. I’ve started asking myself this series of questions every morning (to try) to set a peaceful and productive start to my day:

Am I okay?
What exactly am I feeling?
Is this within or beyond my control?
Can I ask someone for help with this?

Is this fool-proof? Absolutely not. But it definitely helps me put things in perspective, even if I don’t have all the answers. Do me a favor and ask yourself these questions as part of your daily morning routine. Don’t worry about whether or not you have an answer. The point is to normalize the self-check process.

See.. I bet you didn’t think this post would go there.. Gotta keep you on your toes!!

How are you checking in with yourself? Let me know in the comments here or on IG at @noemiegaines!!

For the entire month of July, I’ll be posting a blog post every Monday through Friday as part of Mattie James’ consistency challenge. I’ll be covering everything from love and relationships to motherhood, cooking, and home decor. #mjconsistencychallenge #mjconsistencypays

Thanks in advance for taking this journey with me and let’s connect soon! <3.